prayerwheel: aisutabetao | pixiv id 8428902 (♪ that visions are seldom all they seem)
azura ♪ ʟᴀᴅʏ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀᴋᴇ ([personal profile] prayerwheel) wrote in [community profile] backyardbbq 2019-08-23 03:42 am (UTC)

....don't you get it?

[ quietly

she lets go of his hand ]


It was--I kept thinking "did I do something wrong?"

I--I don't...know what happened in that booth. The booth with the cups. [ when Vanitas messed with him and he came out blushing ] But when I saw you two come out of there I just felt...bad, and ugly, and jealous, like I'd missed something. Was I supposed to have said something faster? Spent more time with you, rather than by myself?

I thought..."Isn't this what you're supposed to do when you fancy someone? Tell them? Did I pick the wrong song? Did I sing it badly?" It felt like I was--competing, or something, and I was losing, so I had to do something, or I wouldn't get to say anything to you at all.

[ ...... ]

But...wasn't that exactly what his concubines were doing? Fooling themselves into thinking they had a chance when the king was married to my mother? Deluding myself into thinking there was something between us when you only had eyes for him?

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