whoops wanted some hurt-comfort

[paladaddy]

Just say which of mine you want in the subject header o/ If you don't want to make shit up here's the list of prompts form a random h/c meme. Dice-thingy is here.



1. INJURY. You've been injured. Broken bones or bleeding out or maybe just a tiny little papercut. The choice is yours.
2. SICKNESS. You're sick and laid up in bed, at home or in a hospital. The severity is up to you.
3. FEAR/ANXIETY. Something is happening and you're scared beyond belief.
4. LOSS OF SENSES. Sight, touch, taste, hearing, smell, etc. You've lost some important sense or ability and now you're left to deal with it.
5. DESPAIR. Nothing is good or right anymore and you can't shake the depression. Maybe that friend of yours can help though...
6. BREAKUP. You've been dumped. You need someone to comfort you, possibly by the one who dumped you.
7. MAKE UP. Fight or break up, it's time to makeup.
8. RESCUED. You've just been held captive and/or tortured for however long and finally, someone has come to the rescue.
9. BAD ROMANCE. Fight, cheated on, abused, whatever the case is, someone else can clearly see you need comfort from someone who isn't your terrible lover tonight.
10. LOSS. You've experience a loss of some kind and need help getting through it.
11. INSANITY. You're seeing things that aren't really there, hearing voices, or you're just convinced you're at your wit's end finally and you're going to crack. Maybe someone can give you a helping hand.
12. TIRED. You've had a heard life recently and you're just worn too thin to really care anymore. There's no fight left in you anymore. Can someone help change your mind?
13. ADDICTION. Drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, or any other type of addiction has got you in its grasp. First time or relapse. Will someone be able to save you?
14. INSOMNIA. You can't sleep anymore, no matter how hard you try. Maybe someone can give you company.
15. NIGHTMARES. Or, on the other end of the spectrum, you can't sleep without gruesome, horrible nightmares. Either someone is stuck in your dream with you, witnessing it or they're just waking you up, soothing you out of it.
16. BLACKMAIL. You've been caught doing something you shouldn't and you were blackmailed because of it
17. SEPARATION. You're going to be separated for awhile or were separated for a long time. Either make up for lost time or try to spend every last moment together.
18. VIOLATED. You've been violated in some way. Can include sexual overtones or not. Can someone help you through it?
19. STRANDED. You've been stranded somewhere remote, with no help of anyone finding you for awhile. Can you survive this together?
20. SINS. You're feeling the weight of your sins and guilt clearer than ever. Can someone give you absolution or lessen the ache any?
21. SECRET. It's difficult having to keep that secret of yours, be it a relationship or something you just don't want to share with anybody else. Maybe it's okay to talk about it now though...
22. ADDITION. Babies should be joyous things unless you're in a situation where you know you won't be able to care for them. Either you've adopted or found out you're pregnant.

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[kyotoprincess]

[Okay, that Bon definitely heard. And as soon as he heard it he quickly stood up and whipped around to see just who it was.

And it was Rin. Of course, who else would it be? It had to be the person Bon had just been mumbling to himself about, that's how it always went.

But Bon had pretty much frozen there, stuck somewhere between horror and pure embarrassment at having been overheard. He's not sure if he wants to yell at Rin for sneaking up on him or just jump into the river.]

[hellpyre]

[Of course it was her, and she was equally embarrassed over being heard, but there was nothing she could do about it now. Walking away felt cowardly, yelling at him was pointless, standing there to get yelled at would just make her feel worse...]

... you keep tellin' me to stop apologizing' but I feel like that's all I can do anymore. I know you just want your friend here but you're stuck with me. That ain't fair to you. And I'm just makin' it worse by bein' difficult.

[kyotoprincess]

[That was both the best and the worst thing to say to him right then. it's the truth, but it's a painful truth, especially for Bon.

It breaks through his shock, though, and he scowls at looks away. As much as he gets on Rin's case for not letting his friends help, he's doing the same thing here.]

It's nothing wrong with you! It's my problem, not yours. I don't want your apologies. I don't want anything from you.

[hellpyre]

[They're both pretty damn hypocritical about that, but for the first time in probably... ever, Rin actually realizes it. Her expression falls, and she mutters quietly.]

Not even my help... ?

[kyotoprincess]

[Don't go saying it like that Rin, you might make him realize just how hypocritical he's being!]

How are you supposed to help me figure this crap out? It's not...

[He can't really put it into words, and eventually he just get frustrated and throws ALL the rocks into the river.]

[hellpyre]

[GOOD. Because Rin is finally starting to realize it, and it hurts like hell to know that for everyone but Bon, it's too little too late.]

Sometimes friends can't do anything but be there for the people they care about! I know I can't help you, but you were the one always yellin' at me about how I need to let the people who care about me actually do somethin' for me!

[Oops, forgetting this isn't her Bon again. Not that it matters. They've been there long enough to pull friendship out of their collective memories of one another, and it's become impossible for her to separate the two. And even if she could, she can't ignore that her heart still aches at the thought of not having him around.]

I just... hate myself... for not realizin' that soon enough... You're all I've got left... I don't wanna lose you, too...

[kyotoprincess]

[He isn't her Bon, and she isn't his Rin. Even though the differences are subtle, they're still there, and every one drives a knife into Bon's heart.

He really does miss his friends. But he's starting to realize that if he keeps this up he's going to drive his remaining friends away.

Rin's words ring true with him too. That's why he's been so upset: he's afraid of losing Rin. This was all a huge reality check, reminding him that they're not immortal, that they're just a couple teenagers who have to deal with the end of the world. They're in no way prepared for this, but somehow they have to survive.

And surviving means being open to each other, not shutting each other out. So, Bon sighs and closes his eyes as he thinks for a moment. Then he wordlessly pats the ground next to him, inviting Rin to come sit down.

He's still going to be difficult about his problems, but he's going to try not to chase Rin away again.]

[hellpyre]

[Rin is calmed by the motion, and while she wasn't crying again, she had been close. The emotions of what happened to her weren't just going to go away over night, but she was keeping better about keeping them in check now that she's finally had a moment of weakness and breaking down.

She sniffles, rubbing at her face as she moved to sit next to him, folding legs underneath herself.]

... so... what is it you're tryin' to figure out?

[kyotoprincess]

[Of course she had to ask about that. Of course.

He's going to make a big show out of looking flustered and turning his head away (to keep her from seeing his face and his real feelings) before he speaks.]

When you were in my bed, it bothered me. Not in a bad way- [That is added quickly, to keep Rin from getting upset.] -just. It was bothersome.

But I know if you were the Rin I know from home, it wouldn't have been bothersome in that way.

[hellpyre]

... bothersome 'cause... I'm a girl and he's a boy, right?

[She asks it as a question, but there's still a note of assumption to her voice. She doesn't look at him, saving him any added embarrassment from just knowing that she could see him at all.]

I wasn't really raised with any sorta special treatment. We were Shiro's children first and his daughters second. And no one at the school really gave me any grief for bein' a girl. It was all about whether not I was actually makin' an effort... well, and the whole Satan thing...

I keep forgettin'... how weird this must be for you. I know I'm makin' it worse by not really noticin' when you're uncomfortable or whatever...

[kyotoprincess]

If I'd known you as a girl from day 1 it wouldn't be bothersome.

[Then he wouldn't be mentally comparing Rin the boy to Rin the girl, it would have always been Rin who happens to be a girl.

Then again, if Rin had always been a girl, Bon probably would have eventually grown to be attracted to her anyway. Thinking back on it, the only reason he hadn't grown to LIKE like Rin in his world was because he was a boy. And because he never saw anything romantically anyway.]

It's just...different. I don't normally notice girls at all. Not like this. Not as girls.

[hellpyre]

As girls--...

[Rin stops mid sentence, and it's her turn for her cheeks to darken. Maybe she's reading too much in to it, but he doesn't offer much else in the way of context, leading her mind to... well, frankly places she had never given much consideration to either.]

Oh.

[kyotoprincess]

You've seen me around Moriyama and Kamiki, it doesn't matter that they're girls. I don't normally care about that!

But you're different, and I don't know why.

[And that is what's frustrating him. Rin better have some answers for him, because he's hating himself for just putting words to these feelings.]

[hellpyre]

... you--

[Wait.

Wait wait back up.

He just said 'seeing a girl as a girl' and can even recognize the difference between how he acts around Shiemi and Izumo and how he acts around Rin and he doesn't know why?]

... God, you are... the dumbest smart guy I have ever known.

[kyotoprincess]

[He is really dumb about girls okay? He spends so much of his time focused on his goals in life that he kind of forgets he likes girls most of the time.

He looks honestly surprised at Rin's words, too.]

What?

[hellpyre]

[Sorry, Bon. She's laughing. Even if she's wrong, she can't help it. She's got a hand over her face, hunched over as she laughs in some sort of disbelieving tone.]

N-never mind... don't try to break your brain over it, you kinda need that... !

[kyotoprincess]

[Noooo don't laugh at him! He was already vulnerable and now he's getting defensive and angry.]

Stop laughing! It's not even that funny! And my brain is going to be fine, thank you very much!

[hellpyre]

I-I'm sorry--!

[She is. Really. She just can't stop now. She's at that point where laughing feels so much better compared to hysterical crying that she's beside herself with it.]

H-how can you be so completely out of touch with your own feelings...? I don't get it. Please, tell me not all boys are this oblivious.

[kyotoprincess]

[See, he hasn't quite figured out what Rin knows. He knows it in his heart and soul, but his mind still needs to catch up. While he can easily admit to admiring Rin and enjoying her company, he still can't comprehend the idea of actually liking anyone in that way.

So when Rin talks about boys being oblivious, he's sure Rin has figured out something he doesn't know, but since she isn't sharing what that is he's just getting mad.]

Did you miss the part where I'm not like most boys? I've got too much to do to worry about girls and feelings. That's why I'm asking you what all this means.

[Come on Rin he at least trusts you enough to give him an honest answer.]

[hellpyre]

[To her it's not so much knowing as it is taking a damn wild guess. A guess that she quietly, secretly hopes might actually be right, because now that the idea is in her head she's not only okay with it but kind of excited at the prospect of it at all. Hell, just the idea that anyone could look at her, see past her faults, her heritage and still come out the other side romantically interested makes her aching heart much less pained.

Her laughter quiets, replaced instead by a genuinely warm smile - probably one of the first she's worn in weeks. Even if she's wrong, it's still nice to have this moment.]

No... you're not. But I think that's okay. Not everyone is the same, y'know? Even so, I can only guess. I could be wrong.

[kyotoprincess]

[Bon has a feeling he knows what Rin's guess will be, which is a problem since he's still in denial about it. Suddenly he's thinking that maybe he doesn't want to hear Rin's guess, since there would be no turning back then.

Rin is his friend. She's his good friend, and pretty much the only person here he trusts. As much as he would like for it to be more than that, he's afraid of messing up. If there's anything he's good at, it's messing up at social things.]

A guess probably wouldn't help here, especially if it could be wrong.

[hellpyre]

You did want my help, but...

[She also doesn't want to say it and think that it has to be what she's thinking. Power of suggestion and all that.]

[kyotoprincess]

Tell me about your experiences then. Was there a time where the same thing happened to you?

[Whoops he accidentally a personal question.]

[hellpyre]

To me... ?

[Yeah that was unexpected.]

Well. Uhm. ... yeah, actually. Yeah, my first year in middle school.

[kyotoprincess]

And what did you do about it?

[HE IS CURIOUS. Depending on how well it went with Rin, he might try what she says.]