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whoops wanted some hurt-comfort

Just say which of mine you want in the subject header o/ If you don't want to make shit up here's the list of prompts form a random h/c meme. Dice-thingy is here.

1. INJURY. You've been injured. Broken bones or bleeding out or maybe just a tiny little papercut. The choice is yours.
2. SICKNESS. You're sick and laid up in bed, at home or in a hospital. The severity is up to you.
3. FEAR/ANXIETY. Something is happening and you're scared beyond belief.
4. LOSS OF SENSES. Sight, touch, taste, hearing, smell, etc. You've lost some important sense or ability and now you're left to deal with it.
5. DESPAIR. Nothing is good or right anymore and you can't shake the depression. Maybe that friend of yours can help though...
6. BREAKUP. You've been dumped. You need someone to comfort you, possibly by the one who dumped you.
7. MAKE UP. Fight or break up, it's time to makeup.
8. RESCUED. You've just been held captive and/or tortured for however long and finally, someone has come to the rescue.
9. BAD ROMANCE. Fight, cheated on, abused, whatever the case is, someone else can clearly see you need comfort from someone who isn't your terrible lover tonight.
10. LOSS. You've experience a loss of some kind and need help getting through it.
11. INSANITY. You're seeing things that aren't really there, hearing voices, or you're just convinced you're at your wit's end finally and you're going to crack. Maybe someone can give you a helping hand.
12. TIRED. You've had a heard life recently and you're just worn too thin to really care anymore. There's no fight left in you anymore. Can someone help change your mind?
13. ADDICTION. Drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, or any other type of addiction has got you in its grasp. First time or relapse. Will someone be able to save you?
14. INSOMNIA. You can't sleep anymore, no matter how hard you try. Maybe someone can give you company.
15. NIGHTMARES. Or, on the other end of the spectrum, you can't sleep without gruesome, horrible nightmares. Either someone is stuck in your dream with you, witnessing it or they're just waking you up, soothing you out of it.
16. BLACKMAIL. You've been caught doing something you shouldn't and you were blackmailed because of it
17. SEPARATION. You're going to be separated for awhile or were separated for a long time. Either make up for lost time or try to spend every last moment together.
18. VIOLATED. You've been violated in some way. Can include sexual overtones or not. Can someone help you through it?
19. STRANDED. You've been stranded somewhere remote, with no help of anyone finding you for awhile. Can you survive this together?
20. SINS. You're feeling the weight of your sins and guilt clearer than ever. Can someone give you absolution or lessen the ache any?
21. SECRET. It's difficult having to keep that secret of yours, be it a relationship or something you just don't want to share with anybody else. Maybe it's okay to talk about it now though...
22. ADDITION. Babies should be joyous things unless you're in a situation where you know you won't be able to care for them. Either you've adopted or found out you're pregnant.

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[GJ Bon. Perfect gentleman.]

Why're you takin' the blame for this?

[She says it with a sniffle, sitting back mostly to rub the sleeves of the too-big shirt over her eyes. (Who's shirt is this, anyway? It's not one of hers...)]

It was gonna happen eventually... I just-- ... just wish you didn't have t' see it...

Think of it this way: If I hadn't been there, who would've dragged you back to the Bastion?

[Sure there were other people there too, but details.]

And I shouldn't have yelled at you right after you had woken up.

[Her face was already red from crying, but it didn't do much to hide that she was actively blushing at that. She knew he had carried her back, just from what she could remember, but it was still embarrassing to talk about it out loud.]

I... it's fine... when're you not yellin' at me... ?

[She ducked her head lower, hair falling in her face again.]

Thanks...

...No problem.

[He wasn't actually expecting her to thank him, which makes this even more embarrassing. He looks away, trying to hide the embarrassment on his face.]

Since you're awake now, I can leave you be for a while.

[If she wants her privacy. He's also pretty tired from three days of shitty sleep.]

[For some reason, and damned if she knew why, Rin's head snapped up at that. It was almost as if she was afraid to be alone suddenly-- no, it couldn't be that, right? That was just silly. She spent plenty of time in her room alone, it was nothing new. Surely that heaviness in her chest was just an after effect of her injury healing.

And... it wasn't like she could make him stay after he had done so for three days straight. He needed rest, right? ... and she needed a shower. Ew.

She snapped her mouth closed, forcing all those odd, mixed up thoughts to the back of her mind as she nodded slowly.]

Y... yeah, you should... you should get some sleep...

[Rin's reaction was unexpected, and Bon almost questioned her about it, but he decided against it at the last moment.]

...Yeah. I should.

And you go find some food, and I'm sure the others wanted to see you too.

[With that, he'll stand up and go to leave the room. He stops at the door, though, and looks back at Rin. He looks like he really wants to say something, but he just can't bring himself to say it.]

[I don't want to be alone right now...]

Y-yeah. Heh. I'm pretty hungry...

[I don't know if I can face them after what happened...]

I bet they're really missin' me in the kitchen, huh?

[Don't leave me here. They're my friends but I feel like you're the only one I can really trust right now...]

I'll uhm... I'll see you later then, yeah... ?

[She really didn't know where those thoughts were coming from, just that every one made her chest ache worse and worse, one piling on top of the other with no courage in her to just say them. Even as Bon moved to leave, she just sat there, hands in her lap, clasped tightly so he wouldn't see her shaking.]

[He really wants to stay, to make sure Rin is really okay and that nothing bad will happen when he's not right there beside her. But hearing her words, he's sure she wants to get up and do her own thing, especially after sleeping for so long.

So he shoves away his own insecurities and just nods.]

Yeah. You know where I live so...see you around.

[And with that, he's gone. His sleep is anything but restful, though. He'll spend the whole 'night' tossing and turning and waking up from bad dreams several times.]

[It takes her a good twenty minutes to force herself out of that spot after the door closes. The click just sounds so damn final to her even though she knows good and well that it's nothing of the sort. He's still there, right next door, and no one is going anywhere.

It still takes her that long to convince herself of it, though.

But she does get moving, and a cold shower comes first, which isn't nearly as bad as it sounds given that her skin feels not only oily but clammy with sweat, and her internal temperature feels higher than it normally is. The chill of the water is both calming and soothing, and while she's still running hot from her recovery it's much less noticeable and uncomfortable. Clean clothes also help, and for a short time she actually feels like she can behave as a normal person again.

After that she ventured beyond the walls of the apartments, visiting people and receiving plenty of hugs and grateful responses for her renewed state. The only one who cried was Marie, which was a given, and it was far more dramatic and motherly than anything Rin had done earlier. Thankfully her nearly crushing hug takes any desire out of Rin to match those tears.

Food and some conversation after that, but soon enough she was about ready to doze off, body still in need of proper rest. At Nathaniel's urging she's nudged back to her room, and that was where it all fell away again.

Standing at the foot of her bed in her tiny room, she stares at the unmade sheets and blankets, feeling an ill lump rising in her throat. Three days she spent in that bed, and she doesn't want to revisit it so soon. Exhaustion was going to win out sooner or later, but not before she stripped the entire thing down and remade it with something cleaner.

At least then, it wasn't so much like the place she had been lying in when she woke.

But like Bon, sleep doesn't come easily, and her dreams are repeated delusions of blood, death, failure, loneliness, interlaced with wandering in nothingness only to have some ill defined monster of darkness come along and devour her in it's snapping jaws, tearing her limb from limb as she screams until she can't scream anymore.

More than once she wakes up in a sweat, cold now instead of hot, shivering, panting, whimpering with arm around herself. The only comfort is the constant light, normally annoying but now the thing that chases the monsters away until she closes her eyes again.

Around the third or fourth time, though, she topples out of bed and lands with a squeak on the hard floor, and it's too much to try to go to sleep again. Not alone, anyway.

Damned if she can even begin to explain what compelled her to do it, but she slips out of her room, and takes the few steps to the one next to it. The door is unlocked, as security really isn't an issue for any of them, and she pushes it open quietly. Bare feet shuffling, hair down and blanket hooded around her like a cape, she makes her way to Bon's bedroom, that door opening only a crack before she speaks.]

Bon... ?

Mmmn?

[He's somewhere between asleep and awake, his blankets wrapped up around him like a cocoon. He has a spare blanket hung over his bedroom window, blocking out most of the light so that sleep is actually possible.

Well, normally it would be, if Bon weren't fighting with sleep.

There is enough drowsiness on his mind that he doesn't immediately realize how weird it is for Rin to suddenly appear at his bedroom door. They live in the same building, nobody locks doors, so it's normal, right?

His half-grunt is questioning in nature, asking her 'what is it' without actually using words. He doesn't even open his eyes or lift his head to look at her, he's just listening right now.]

[She almost felt bad, just walking in like that. It wasn't normal for either of them by any means, even if they did spend time in each other's apartments periodically. She didn't want to wake him either, but the idea of going back to her room alone again made her stomach twist with anxiety.]

I couldn't sleep...

[She hadn't voiced the thought aloud, but she knew he really was the only one she completely trusted. Others were friends, good friends at that, but they had a connection she didn't have with anyone else.

And, well... she had cried in front of him. Openly. Maybe he could forgive her for acting out of sorts for a few days...

She shuffled in, closing the door quietly behind her, and moved over to the bed. They weren't huge beds, but just big enough to fit two people if crowding wasn't a problem. And she was small, so it wasn't too difficult to lay down next to him, huddled under her own blanket.]

Sorry...

[Oh sure, just go invade his space like that. It's not like Bon was using it or anything.

Actually he does scoot over to make room for her, though once she's in the bed he'll toss one side of his blanket over her. He likes to wrap himself up when he sleeps, but he can share.

He also missed the fact that Rin had her own blanket with her. Oops.]

S'ok. I wasn't really sleeping anyway.

[The blanket was unexpected, but so was the fact that he was actually okay with it. Okay sure just be totally alright with the girl version of one of your male friends crawling in to bed with you wearing nothing more than a long chemise for a nightgown. That's cool.

Her own blanket was covering her anyway, but she welcomes the second one, still feeling oddly cold after an entire day of nothing but overheating.]

... you okay? I thought you'd be really tired after all that.

[He sees Rin as a friend, and it is completely normal for friends to sneak into each other's beds at night. He grew up in a temple full of brats, he is used to the bedninjaing.]

I'm a light sleeper.

[A truthful answer, he rarely goes into deep sleep. But there is a different cause for it this time.]

What about you?

[Rin shared her room with Yuki, so there was almost always a presence there in the room with her. Granted it was Yuki who had nightmares when they were younger, not Rin, and when they were very little the younger Okumura would crawl in to Rin's lower bunk at night and they would talk about the things she could see but Rin couldn't.

In retrospect, that should have been a big clue, but it stopped after Yuki was seven and Rin only recently learned why.

And it wasn't like she had friends to have sleepovers with, so this is all strange and new to her. The idea of sleeping alone and the fear of returning to nightmares far outweighs any desire to leave, though.

She doesn't question his response, but there's a decently long silence from her where in she debates between a half-assed lie and the embarrassing truth.]

... bad dreams.

[bad dreams are a thing Bon can understand. Even though he won't admit to it, he's been plagued by them for some time now, ever since the camping trip. They had only gotten worse with each terrible event in his life, too. He has the feeling they will persist for his entire life.

But he deals with them by himself, rather than by seeking out comfort. His parents weren't exactly easy to talk to, and his friends looked to him for support, not the other way around. It was hard, being the pillar of strength in a group. It's hard, and nobody understands.

So when Rin says bad dreams, he gets it. But he's not going to admit to that, especially not to Rin.]

You're not a blanket hog, right?

[Because that is the most important aspect of sharing a bed with a girl.

...which Bon just realizes. Holy shit he's in a bed with a girl. He keeps forgetting that Rin is female now because he's used to boy Rin and this Rin doesn't act much like a girl anyway.]

[Yes, Bon. There are tits in your bed. Try to breathe.]

Mhmn...

[She totally is, but she has her own blanket so hopefully that will offset some of the need to burrito.]

[Tits are ok as long as they're not in his face or touching him anywhere. Rin's tits are small too so it's not quite as bad as it would be if it were Shiemi or Shura.

Also, at some point that night, they're going to end up burritoing up together. That's just how it has to work, Bon doesn't sleep well if he's not wrapped up.]

[The over-sized nightgown certainly helps conceal that. It's only when she's in the clothes she had crafted that there's any real hint of a chest there.

Burritoing together is just fine with her though. Having another person there helps her actually fall asleep, and while her dreams are still dark in nature, she manages a good four, almost five hours without a nightmare.

One does happen, though. Not nearly as bad as the others, but bad enough that the Rin-Burrito next to Bon eventually starts whimpering, curling tighter as if hiding from something.]

[Bon is still fast asleep, completely unaware of the bad dreams Rin is having right next to him. As light of a sleeper as he is, he's not so easy to wake up that a bit of whimpering will do it.

But he does frown in his sleep, and as if by instinct he moves to drape an arm over Rin, pulling her closer to him. Shh, no more tears, only dreams now.]

[Had she been awake, that odd show of almost-affection would have surprised her. But had she been awake she wouldn't have been dealing with such awful dreams either. It works, though, and the whimpers taper off in to quiet breathing. She curls up tighter, unconsciously pressing up against him as she falls back in to something closer to a dreamless, restful sleep.]

[It's hard to tell exactly when he wakes up, since there's no change in lighting based on the time of day. Instead, Bon just finds himself blinking awake after some time, only to find himself burrowed deep within the blankets with Rin cozied up right next to him.

His mind has to wake up some to realize just what is going on, but as it does he tenses up next to her. He's doing a good job of not making a scene, but he is screaming internally.]

[Rin is still out, deep enough in sleep that she doesn't realize that Bon is awake or even that he's tensed up. His slight movement only makes her burrow in more, a hand coming up to rest near her face with two fingers slightly clutching at Bon's shirt.]

[Too close too close too close]

Oi. Wake up.

[He's keeping his voice calm but there is still internal screaming going on here. And more freaking out over a girl being in his bed. Rin's female-ness doesn't matter most of the time, but somehow it matters now.]

[Sorry, Bon. Your efforts will be for naught. Rin is very slowly pulled out of sleep by his voice, but it only serves to make her want to go back to sleep all the more.]

Mnhmnn...

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