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whoops wanted some hurt-comfort

Just say which of mine you want in the subject header o/ If you don't want to make shit up here's the list of prompts form a random h/c meme. Dice-thingy is here.

1. INJURY. You've been injured. Broken bones or bleeding out or maybe just a tiny little papercut. The choice is yours.
2. SICKNESS. You're sick and laid up in bed, at home or in a hospital. The severity is up to you.
3. FEAR/ANXIETY. Something is happening and you're scared beyond belief.
4. LOSS OF SENSES. Sight, touch, taste, hearing, smell, etc. You've lost some important sense or ability and now you're left to deal with it.
5. DESPAIR. Nothing is good or right anymore and you can't shake the depression. Maybe that friend of yours can help though...
6. BREAKUP. You've been dumped. You need someone to comfort you, possibly by the one who dumped you.
7. MAKE UP. Fight or break up, it's time to makeup.
8. RESCUED. You've just been held captive and/or tortured for however long and finally, someone has come to the rescue.
9. BAD ROMANCE. Fight, cheated on, abused, whatever the case is, someone else can clearly see you need comfort from someone who isn't your terrible lover tonight.
10. LOSS. You've experience a loss of some kind and need help getting through it.
11. INSANITY. You're seeing things that aren't really there, hearing voices, or you're just convinced you're at your wit's end finally and you're going to crack. Maybe someone can give you a helping hand.
12. TIRED. You've had a heard life recently and you're just worn too thin to really care anymore. There's no fight left in you anymore. Can someone help change your mind?
13. ADDICTION. Drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, or any other type of addiction has got you in its grasp. First time or relapse. Will someone be able to save you?
14. INSOMNIA. You can't sleep anymore, no matter how hard you try. Maybe someone can give you company.
15. NIGHTMARES. Or, on the other end of the spectrum, you can't sleep without gruesome, horrible nightmares. Either someone is stuck in your dream with you, witnessing it or they're just waking you up, soothing you out of it.
16. BLACKMAIL. You've been caught doing something you shouldn't and you were blackmailed because of it
17. SEPARATION. You're going to be separated for awhile or were separated for a long time. Either make up for lost time or try to spend every last moment together.
18. VIOLATED. You've been violated in some way. Can include sexual overtones or not. Can someone help you through it?
19. STRANDED. You've been stranded somewhere remote, with no help of anyone finding you for awhile. Can you survive this together?
20. SINS. You're feeling the weight of your sins and guilt clearer than ever. Can someone give you absolution or lessen the ache any?
21. SECRET. It's difficult having to keep that secret of yours, be it a relationship or something you just don't want to share with anybody else. Maybe it's okay to talk about it now though...
22. ADDITION. Babies should be joyous things unless you're in a situation where you know you won't be able to care for them. Either you've adopted or found out you're pregnant.

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[Rin is a master at making things worse.

She lets out a whining groan and hunches over, face still in her hands because there is no way she can look at him after that.]

Okay... 'msorry...

[Aww geez, Bon forces himself to look away again. Why does this have to be so awkward and difficult?

But Rin's apology does get him to quiet down. He's still upset, but he's not yelling anymore.]

Just...we already went through this, remember? Back in Kyoto?

[That also gets her to quiet down, and for her little distressed noises to stop. Her tail shifts, curling around her midsection and her hands fall away to her lap, though her gaze refuses to come up again. Her hair is a mess from three days of not brushing it, and it hangs heavy over her face.]

Y-yeah... I remember... I thought we were ok. I brought that Gasfella down and I was so damn happy it was a lot like Kyoto again...

[He really can't be mad at her about that, nobody was expecting that random pincushion. At least it was Rin who had gotten hit, and not somebody without the amazing healing.

Still, Bon's words sound heavy as he speaks.]

I thought you were dead.

...Everyone did.

[That second part is a thought after the fact, to try to draw the focus away from his own feelings.]

[It was harder to ignore this time, especially recalling how she had seen his face above her, how he had been screaming... she couldn't read lips, but thinking back on it now he hadn't been screaming 'hang on', he had been screaming her name. It was too short to be anything else.

She felt a lump rising in her throat, her heart aching in a way that had nothing to do with her injuries. Her fingers curled in to fists on her lap, and before she realized what was happening, tears had started to fall on to the backs of her hands.]

F... for a little bit... I thought... I thought I was dead, too...

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[Fuck, not the tears. Bon can't handle the tears.

He doesn't mean to get angry like this, but he's really bad at emotions. He doesn't know how to handle hurting like this besides to get angry.]

Well don't be so careless next time! What are we supposed to do, if you go get yourself killed like that? There's already so few of us, we can't just lose you like that!

[Shit shit shit he's standing up suddenly now and walking across the room. Not to leave, but because walking and pacing helps him calm himself. Movement is good.]

It's not like we knew it was there...

[What should have come with the same raised voice that she always brought out to match his yelling only left her lips in a mutter, voice thick with tears and hitching on the verge of sobs. She didn't want to cry in front of him. She didn't want to cry in front of anyone but least of all him.

She was supposed to be the strong one, the goofy grinning half demon humming in the kitchen and kicking ass out on the Skyway. But every day there was already a god awful struggle to keep how broken she really was a secret from everyone, and knowing she had been so close to death because of a careless misstep sent her too close to that edge.

She doesn't bother to stop him from getting up and moving. She can hear his heavy footsteps enough to know that he's just pacing, not storming out in anger. She tries hard to hold her composure, what little she has left, but it's already frayed and that last string has finally snapped. She puts her hands over her face and hunches over, sobs silent but causing her shoulders to quake regardless.]

I know!

[He knows it's not her fault. Nobody had seen it coming. That's what made this so scary: it was an unknown danger. Rin getting hurt from her own stupidity? Bon could handle that. He could yell at her and get her to stop being so careless. But something like this? There was no way to prevent it, it just happened.

When he speaks again, it's a lot quieter. He can hear Rin crying, and it makes his chest hurt. She just woke up, she shouldn't be crying like that.

He shouldn't be making her upset like this.]

I know, I just...

[He stops pacing and sighs.]

Come on, don't cry like that.

[A vocal sob escaped as soon as he said that, hands starting to rub furiously at her face. The tears wouldn't stop. She wanted them to stop but they just wouldn't. She had been holding back so much for so long that it was like a dam had exploded in her aching chest, shoving more emotions out than she could conceivably handle.]

I can't-- I can't stop--...

[It was too much, and asking her to not cry was asking the impossible. There was no way to hold back anymore, not after what had happened, and any attempt to be silent with her tears shattered, voice coming out in a pained, terrified wail.]

[Bon jumps a little at that, because he definitely had not been expecting that. He quickly looks around, though that is more of a reflex than anything else. Usually a demon wailing like that will attract more demons, but hey, no demons in the Bastion!

But he's mentally kicking himself, because he's just making this worse. Damn, he's really bad at this whole 'comforting' thing. He shifts nervously in place for a moment, trying to figure out what the hell he should even do.

Eventually he settles on moving over and hugging her, because that's what people did when someone was crying, right?]

[She was already hating herself for what happened, but it's more so now that she's completely lost any ability to keep her emotions in. Fear was commonplace where they were, but to actually be that close to death and know it scares the hell out of her. In that moment she's not a demon, not the daughter of Satan, but a terrified teenage girl who's been forced to deal with the end of the world and the haunting realization that regardless of her strength and power she could still very well die out there.

Not just that, but the idea that she could never see Bon or any of her new friends again hits her like a train. What if she had died? What would that have done to the people she cares about? It's too painful to think about, but it's there, and it only serves to make her tears all the more present.

There's no hesitation, no surprise when Bon hugs her. She turns and clutches at his shirt, burying her face in his chest as sobs wracked her entire body, making her seem tiny and vulnerable in his arms.]

[He had been hoping that the hug would make Rin stop crying, but if anything it makes it worse. Bon thinks about pulling away, since hugging doesn't seem to be working, but with the way Rin is holding onto him he doesn't think he would be able to pry himself away even if he wanted to.

Which he doesn't, even though it's making Rin cry more.

That is also a startling realization for him.

He doesn't say anything right now, but instead tries to pat her on the back while hugging her. It's a little awkward, but he's too worked up to really notice it. He'll just hold onto her until she cries out all of her tears, since it seems that's how this is going to go.]

[Unfortunately, he's right about that. But getting it out is what she needs, and even if her head hurts and her eyes sting after she'll feel better.

Better, but marginally embarrassed that this happened in front of Bon of all people. Damn. Why couldn't it have been Night... ?

But she does quiet, slowly. From sobs to quiet noises, to sniffles and a faint hiccup here and there. Even when she's done with the majority of it, though, she doesn't pull away. Awkward as it is... it's kind of nice. Only her father ever held her when she cried, and that ended after a certain point in her life when she proclaimed loudly that she was "too old" to be crying to anyone, least of all the old man.

She'd forgotten how much of a comfort it could be, just to have some one's arms around her when she needed to let everything out.]

[The front of Bon's shirt is wet. This fact is mildly irritating, especially since they don't have spare clothes to change into all the time. But he doesn't say anything, because that would be terrible of him and migth get Rin crying again.

Or angry, though at this point angry is familiar to him and he would feel better about dealing with an angry Rin. Crying Rin is weird and new and way outside of Bon's comfort zone of Rin interactions.

Still, he doesn't push her away when she stops crying, instead letting her pull herself away when she's ready.]

Feeling better?

I think so...

[Her voice is tiny, still laced with the fear and upset that had driven her to tears in the first place. Angry would be easier, but she's at the point where she can't even muster up the energy to be angry.]

'msorry...

[She can't seem to stop apologizing, either. It doesn't really mean anything beyond 'I have no idea what to do now that you've seen me at my worst'.]

I already told you, stop apologizing. I'm the one who should be saying sorry, I got you all worked up.

[Notice how he admits to being wrong, but doesn't actually apologize.

And even though they're done hugging, Bon still remains there, sitting on the edge of Rin's bed.]

[GJ Bon. Perfect gentleman.]

Why're you takin' the blame for this?

[She says it with a sniffle, sitting back mostly to rub the sleeves of the too-big shirt over her eyes. (Who's shirt is this, anyway? It's not one of hers...)]

It was gonna happen eventually... I just-- ... just wish you didn't have t' see it...

Think of it this way: If I hadn't been there, who would've dragged you back to the Bastion?

[Sure there were other people there too, but details.]

And I shouldn't have yelled at you right after you had woken up.

[Her face was already red from crying, but it didn't do much to hide that she was actively blushing at that. She knew he had carried her back, just from what she could remember, but it was still embarrassing to talk about it out loud.]

I... it's fine... when're you not yellin' at me... ?

[She ducked her head lower, hair falling in her face again.]

Thanks...

...No problem.

[He wasn't actually expecting her to thank him, which makes this even more embarrassing. He looks away, trying to hide the embarrassment on his face.]

Since you're awake now, I can leave you be for a while.

[If she wants her privacy. He's also pretty tired from three days of shitty sleep.]

[For some reason, and damned if she knew why, Rin's head snapped up at that. It was almost as if she was afraid to be alone suddenly-- no, it couldn't be that, right? That was just silly. She spent plenty of time in her room alone, it was nothing new. Surely that heaviness in her chest was just an after effect of her injury healing.

And... it wasn't like she could make him stay after he had done so for three days straight. He needed rest, right? ... and she needed a shower. Ew.

She snapped her mouth closed, forcing all those odd, mixed up thoughts to the back of her mind as she nodded slowly.]

Y... yeah, you should... you should get some sleep...

[Rin's reaction was unexpected, and Bon almost questioned her about it, but he decided against it at the last moment.]

...Yeah. I should.

And you go find some food, and I'm sure the others wanted to see you too.

[With that, he'll stand up and go to leave the room. He stops at the door, though, and looks back at Rin. He looks like he really wants to say something, but he just can't bring himself to say it.]

[I don't want to be alone right now...]

Y-yeah. Heh. I'm pretty hungry...

[I don't know if I can face them after what happened...]

I bet they're really missin' me in the kitchen, huh?

[Don't leave me here. They're my friends but I feel like you're the only one I can really trust right now...]

I'll uhm... I'll see you later then, yeah... ?

[She really didn't know where those thoughts were coming from, just that every one made her chest ache worse and worse, one piling on top of the other with no courage in her to just say them. Even as Bon moved to leave, she just sat there, hands in her lap, clasped tightly so he wouldn't see her shaking.]

[He really wants to stay, to make sure Rin is really okay and that nothing bad will happen when he's not right there beside her. But hearing her words, he's sure she wants to get up and do her own thing, especially after sleeping for so long.

So he shoves away his own insecurities and just nods.]

Yeah. You know where I live so...see you around.

[And with that, he's gone. His sleep is anything but restful, though. He'll spend the whole 'night' tossing and turning and waking up from bad dreams several times.]

[It takes her a good twenty minutes to force herself out of that spot after the door closes. The click just sounds so damn final to her even though she knows good and well that it's nothing of the sort. He's still there, right next door, and no one is going anywhere.

It still takes her that long to convince herself of it, though.

But she does get moving, and a cold shower comes first, which isn't nearly as bad as it sounds given that her skin feels not only oily but clammy with sweat, and her internal temperature feels higher than it normally is. The chill of the water is both calming and soothing, and while she's still running hot from her recovery it's much less noticeable and uncomfortable. Clean clothes also help, and for a short time she actually feels like she can behave as a normal person again.

After that she ventured beyond the walls of the apartments, visiting people and receiving plenty of hugs and grateful responses for her renewed state. The only one who cried was Marie, which was a given, and it was far more dramatic and motherly than anything Rin had done earlier. Thankfully her nearly crushing hug takes any desire out of Rin to match those tears.

Food and some conversation after that, but soon enough she was about ready to doze off, body still in need of proper rest. At Nathaniel's urging she's nudged back to her room, and that was where it all fell away again.

Standing at the foot of her bed in her tiny room, she stares at the unmade sheets and blankets, feeling an ill lump rising in her throat. Three days she spent in that bed, and she doesn't want to revisit it so soon. Exhaustion was going to win out sooner or later, but not before she stripped the entire thing down and remade it with something cleaner.

At least then, it wasn't so much like the place she had been lying in when she woke.

But like Bon, sleep doesn't come easily, and her dreams are repeated delusions of blood, death, failure, loneliness, interlaced with wandering in nothingness only to have some ill defined monster of darkness come along and devour her in it's snapping jaws, tearing her limb from limb as she screams until she can't scream anymore.

More than once she wakes up in a sweat, cold now instead of hot, shivering, panting, whimpering with arm around herself. The only comfort is the constant light, normally annoying but now the thing that chases the monsters away until she closes her eyes again.

Around the third or fourth time, though, she topples out of bed and lands with a squeak on the hard floor, and it's too much to try to go to sleep again. Not alone, anyway.

Damned if she can even begin to explain what compelled her to do it, but she slips out of her room, and takes the few steps to the one next to it. The door is unlocked, as security really isn't an issue for any of them, and she pushes it open quietly. Bare feet shuffling, hair down and blanket hooded around her like a cape, she makes her way to Bon's bedroom, that door opening only a crack before she speaks.]

Bon... ?

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